I'll go in chronological order. I forgot to bring my phone to work yesterday/Friday. I had such anxiety not having it with me. Honestly, not being able to scroll through things is something I did miss, even though I wasn't thinking about it every minute. Hopefully that means I'm not totally addicted and gone. No, I was more worried that I would need it and not have it, specifically that I would get into an accident or the car would break down on the way home and I would need to make an emergency call and of course I would not be able to, and I felt as though yesterday would be the day that would happen. No, it did not happen, but that paranoia was with me. It'll always be with me.
The other thing with the phone is that I assumed my boss texted me on it permitting me to come in to work today/Saturday. There is a hell of a lot still left to do, and considering what usually happens when there's a backload of work (and considering that were allowed to work about to four hours yesterday), I would be allowed to come and work today. However, I need to wait till he gives me the specific go-ahead. I am surprised by this, but I still haven't gotten a text from him saying basically, "Yeah, if you want to come in and work today, come on in." But I assumed that he had already done it by the time he left yesterday. And that's why I told everybody before I left yesterday that I might be coming in to work today. (And by the way, I didn't tell anybody that I left my cellphone at home.) So I'm scared that my co-workers thought I would be coming in and changed my mind, when the whole truth is that I was willing and able to come in today, but didn't because I wasn't given explicit permission.
For all I know, my boss wouldn't mind if I come in today. But I'm not going to get all dressed and come in, only to be told that I can't because I wasn't told I could. So instead I'm blog posting this, and thinking about what other stuff I think is crazy happened yesterday/Friday.
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