Thing I don't know how to process is who's teaching her. My former supervisor, the one who taught me everything back there, is long gone. So who is teaching her? One of my other co-workers ... who got the position we're at after me. By tenure, I should be the one teaching the new girl. But I'm not. In fact, the question of who would train her -- well, I should be more specific; why am I not the one training her when I've got the most experience -- never came up. It was her all along. I've seen the conversations between her and my current boss. She has picked up the slack and is doing some of the responsibilities my former supervisor and boss did, so naturally my boss thought she'd be the one to break the new girl in ... even though I think I was at this job a year before she was.
So, why am I not training her? It could be incompetence. Even though I've been at this longer, I'm not sure I can say I do it better. Maybe she does. Also, I don't give off extrovert vibes at work. When I work, I am usually sitting down and I have earbuds jammed into my ear canals. I answer questions the best I can, but if I'm seeing me at work, I can't say I am interested in being engaging with my co-workers, let alone training someone new.
Does it hurt to be passed over like this? Yes, I won't lie. Mostly because I'm scared over what it means to be passed over. This critical responsibility of training is an important one, and it should go to the one with the most tenure. That it's not reflects poorly on me, and if, God forbid, something were to happen with the company, I think not training the new girl would be a demerit against me keeping my job. On the other hand, I've seen my co-worker helping the new girl out this first week of training. And honestly, I'm not sure I would have any interest in training her. I remember all the bad and dumb things I've done and continue to do at my job. Telling her how to do things right would probably make me feel like an impostor. And as shitty as yesterday's/Thursday's work was, I was at least left alone, and that's something I treasure at work. So maybe my co-worker and boss knew what they were doing when they passed me over. And maybe I should not be the one teaching her.