I confess that I have fears that my parents are going to come home suddenly.  Not necessarily without telling me, like that bullshit years ago.  But my cousin is worried about her mother, who is my aunt, who recently fell.  My cousin thinks she's "the next to go," and that's kind of harsh to say, I think (then again, I don't know the details of my cousin's relationship with her mother).  But I have texted my cousin's brother -- also my cousin, of course -- lately and when I've asked about him and his mother/my aunt, he hasn't mentioned her.  My aunt seemed to be in good spirits and in a good mental frame of mind, but I do find him not saying anything about my aunt kind of suspicious.

And if for some reason my folks have to come home suddenly, I'll be caught with my pants down.  My stuff is literally everywhere, and I haven't really started to go through it.  Also, while I cleaned some of the dishes, I haven't cleaned them all.  And everything is dirty.  I remember back in March when I was told my uncle died, and Father said he was coming home from Las Vegas that night.  No way I could've done everything I should have done to tidy up the house, plus I was working at Target Center till the afternoon, so all I had time for was throwing all my crap back in storage.  I don't think I can do that again.

With that said, I think I will take a nap.