I Now Hate The Third Department

I once said that this more a two-person job than a one-person job.  And sure, maybe there would be too much downtime if two people were doing this full-time.  But it sure as hell didn't feel like it last/Friday night.  There is usually some work left over to be done the next day.  But because I was snowed under a crush of work Thursday, there was so much, well, shit that I left for yesterday that by the time I got through all that bullshit, there was too much new bullshit that came yesterday that I didn't even start on.

I hate that feeling of lack of accomplishment.  In particular, I hate that I have left so, so much work for my co-worker, who is coming in to do The Third Department today/Saturday.  When we said our goodbyes yesterday/Friday, I told her that I was going to do my best to cut down on the stuff I am handing off to her.  Honestly, by the time I had to leave, I was unable to take anything off her plate.  If anything, I probably added more shit on to her plate.  I am thinking of all the work she has to do, and she must think that I did nothing, that I in fact lied to her when I said I am doing my best to cut down on the work I would give her.  I feel like a damn heel that I even mentioned that I would try.

I hate that department now.  I really do!  I remember loving the ease and the cozy work atmosphere back there.  But now that one person has to do all that crap, and considering there (at least I think) has been a big uptick in workload, I cannot fathom how my boss or his boss or any higher-ups in the company thinks one person can do all that needs to be done in only eight hours.  It can't be done.  And if my boss or any higher-ups say it can, I might blow my top and dare them to fire me, because that is goddamn well impossible.

Now, I have to have some perspective.  I have been reeling in the overtime ever since my co-worker retired around the holiday.  And unlike up to Easter, my boss hasn't been yelling at my about why I've been staying late, which I have been doing a lot of, and he has not really made a big stink over that.  (Saying that, he might question why I pulled ten hours last/Friday night.  One huge task that I dreaded doing I was specifically told by him I did not have to do, which probably makes him believe that I could leave after eight hours with everything under control.  It sure as hell wasn't, but I think he thinks it should have been, which means that he will shoot me an e-mail asking me why I stayed late.)  I get the feeling that my boss, as well as my supervisor, understands that everybody is overworked and doing the best we can.  If this is how it's going to be, and if he understands why I am staying late to get work done -- and partly as an aside, all the departments within the company have at least been asked to do OT within the past couple weeks ... man, I really don't know why the hell work has come flooding in like this -- I'll accept it ... and the overtime pay.  Nevertheless, this is no longer an easy job.  It has become very, very stressful, and so it is completely unlike the job this was when I began working it.