Three other things I'm afraid of:
- My Fucking Father still doesn't trust my brother-in-law, and probably never will. He just hates people -- and that includes us. He is contemptible towards family, so he'll be absolutely monstrous to those who are not blood. I was not fooled when he started talking to him when we flew over to see them in Switzerland. I'm sure there will be an incident where he's rude.
- Inevitably, my sister is going to ask about The Store. Probably it'll be at the dinner table, so I won't be able to escape not knowing any information about its impending death, such as its drop-dead date. I'm being such a pussy about it, but it's been at least, uh, two months since I've seen it, and it remains very awkward to come up with a reason to go to The Store. Maybe them coming home is reason enough. Still, I have no way to stop what is going to be (or was) a momentous part of my life, and so I have tried to just avoid knowing. I doubt I can avoid knowing now.
- Finally, I'm afraid of hearing them have sex. I still, and forever will, see my little sister as this virginal kewpie doll. And of course she's not; she's a full-blooded wife. Regardless, her bedroom and my new bedroom (which I will forever see as Grandmother's bedroom) share a wall, and the vents for both I think are cut across from each other in the duct. So if I hear bed-rocking noises and/or grunts (and my God I hope I don't hear screams), I'll be freaked the fuck out. I might -- I might -- bang on the wall and ask, "Are you two fucking over there?!?!?!" Hopefully they'll know that doing it at home is a terrible idea and are, like, getting their fucking out of the way before they get here.
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