And then we didn't talk. I thought about speaking with him as our event was coming up, but I had work and then the jobs at Target Center and then my uncle died and then my parents came home ... just a bunch of shit rolled up on me, and so I thought to reconnoiter with him just before the event, or just about now.
So yesterday/Friday afternoon I see that he e-mailed me. He talked about a bunch of stuff about his app and thanked me for helping him troubleshoot it. But in the end of this long and involved message, he said something that has thrown me for a loop. He said that I removed him from "the group," but he doesn't hold any animosity towards me. And he hopes we can work together in the future.
I have no fucking idea what the hell he's talking about. And if you can place yourself in my shoes, please understand the panic I instantly felt when this ... guy/fellow alum made this ... declaration/accusation out of the blue. I expected to see this guy for a big meeting before our volunteering event is about to begin today, because he is supposed to make a speech touting this app for which he is shepherding. I had been looking forward to seeing him. Now, I can't afford to avoid seeing him. And apparently, I hurt his feelings.
And I don't know how. I don't know what "group" he is specifically talking about. I have an e-mail group of alumni to which I sent out messages about events, such as this one. I sent one out earlier this week, and I checked that his e-mail address was one I sent it to. I sent another one, about a game-watching event I'm doing for women's basketball after our event, and I made sure he got that, too. Is he talking about the e-mail list? Because I simply can't believe I removed him.
But after sleeping on it, he might be talking about volunteering for the event itself. One of the things we did while on the Zoom was fiddle around with the organization's reservation system. He put his name in our group. I thought he was just doing it to begin a troubleshooting exercise. I swear he never said anything about actually wanting to volunteer with us. Also, I swear that some time after our online meeting and I started putting names onto my list of reservations (which is something you're supposed to do for this organization), I did not see his name anymore. I assumed he took himself off the list. I know it's in my nature to leave things as they are. Again, I was under the impression that he was just putting his name in there just because, but I would not remove his name unless I had other people who genuinely wanted to volunteer and I had no more spaces available. At that point, I would have e-mailed and asked if he really wanted to volunteer with us, and if his name was just an exercise, whether it would be OK if I took his name off the reservation.
That, however, didn't happen. Again, his name just disappeared, and I thought it disappeared because he deleted his own name. But if this is the "group" he says I removed him from, I don't know how his name got deleted. So I frantically replied to him about an hour after he apparently sent this e-mail, profusely apologizing for what I could have done wrong (even though I have done nothing wrong) and hoping we can iron out any differences or misinterpretations when we see each other this afternoon. He hasn't answered back.
Well, fuck, this is going to be awkward as shit. I need to hope to hell I get there early enough, and he gets there early enough, for us to talk about what did or didn't happen. Otherwise, I am going to run into some guy who's mad at me for fuck knows why. This is drama I don't need in my life, Lord. ...
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