That e-mail blindsided me. But maybe I should not have been blindsided by it. My boss continues to harp on me about OT, all the way through to the performance review I had last month. But it seemed at the time as if he finally understood the energy and time I have to devote to do the job right and get all the forms I'm asking information for processed once I get answers to my questions. Also, and he was a bit candid about this during my performance review, but he is under pressure from his boss or bosses to make sure I don't accrue overtime.
With that being said, I hate being told the day of work that I am supposed to leave early that day. Beyond the surprise, though, I don't like that, basically, I am being told how much money I can make. Maybe I shouldn't be shocked. He has told me to leave early when the work that day is light. But I don't remember being told I have been cut early that way. And that bothers me.
Maybe my rationale has nothing to do with what happened yesterday/Thursday, but I have gotten used to racking up OT. When I started this job, I was only working 40 hours a week. That was fine because I didn't know any better. But then I got walloped by The Fourth Department, and after a lot of hemming and hawing, I realized I had to stay late to do the job properly. That's overtime, and I have been cranking out hour after hour of OT and receiving remuneration for it. If that remuneration stops, it feels like someone is just arbitrarily taking back the money I was making for my hard-earned work.
Potentially losing money I, frankly, have come to expect, has been weighing on my mind so much that ... you know, I'm tired, and I want to go to bed, and I think I am going to just let that last half-line alone. ...
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