Three Thoughts

1) It's about that time of the month where I have to pay my credit card bills, and once again I'm carrying over.  Goddamn, I don't know how I rack up so many charges.  No, that's bullshit; I know how I am -- eating out and porn.  I continue to scroll through all the charges I make and I hate myself afterwards.  It's just gotten worse over the past few months, and I don't know if the holidays are an exacerbating factor.  I just think I'm spending more money.

And that's why, hate to say it, I kind of think my parents coming home will help.  They'll make food for me, and they'll insist I stay home.  Those two tactics will help in keeping my money in my wallet.  Unfortunately, does this mean I'll burn through money ... once they're gone?

2) I'm going to be oblique about this.  All's I'm saying is that there are consequences to taking the high road.  Sometimes you have to get down and dirty.  And sometimes there is collateral damage when you're ridiculing someone who deserves it.  Getting all holier-than-thou is letting your real enemies off the hook.  Eyes on the bigger prize, people.

3) This relates to 1) -- namely, even despite all the money I'm throwing away, I am so going to a secret bar after work tonight.  It's not as if it's been a bad week at work, but it's been a long one.  Really, I've been planning and thinking about going after work tonight for about a week.  It's my safe place, and it makes me happy.  And besides, I probably won't be able to go to another secret bar for a few weeks; next Friday I have dinner with this social club, and the following Friday I'll be celebrating Happy Hour with a friend through my alumni club.  So damn my account, I guess.