Money > OnlyFans

I got money out of the ATM today.  I looked at my balance.  And yes, it was payday yesterday, but it's been real flush for a while, ever since the credit card I signed up for my OnlyFans expired and I used my willpower not to add a new card.  I had always rationalized the money I spent on OF -- I need the porn, my parents are giving me shit, it's not that bad (I'll just buy photos and videos once a week ... a lot of photos and videos), yadda-yadda-yadda.  I kind of knew I was getting out of control with it, and while I have compiled everything single thing I bought there on a spreadsheet, I didn't really look, you know?

I was able to keep up with my credit card bill, but it was a hell of a credit card bill every month.  However, ever since I cut the cord with OF, my checking account has grown.  It's not as if I've been cutting spending on anything else.  Nope, I usually get coffee before work, I eat an inordinate amount of fast food, and I go out to restaurants and cocktail bars frequently.  But until recently, the amount of money I needed to pay off my credit cards exceeded one of the two paychecks I receive every month.  One could say you're living perfectly; to me, that's going one step forward and one step back.  And I am happy, very happy, to see the money in my account growing.

I love my porn.  I might go back to it when I'm feeling horny or sorry for myself.  But right now, I think I made a very wise decision not to spend money on OF.  And I think I'll continue.