I'm not talking to myself and/or angrily gesturing at the people who pissed me off at work last week. Wait, that's not true at all. The past two, three days the talking to myself and/or angrily gesturing at nobody has subsided. More important, my feelings of embarrassment, frustration and defensiveness has ebbed as well.
Why? I don't think this is growing up. I'm not over it, per se. But anything I could have done to remedy the situation and make sure I get employed in the future is probably too late by now. Sure, I could call up my supervisor and make sure things are still cool between us, but if things are already cool between us, I think calling him up would make me look weird, and then I won't get hired again, which means I screwed up something that wasn't really screwed up. For all I know they've forgotten about what I did and said last Sunday. I'm not quite sure, I think they have the capacity to be kind of dickish, but anything that could remedy any bad feelings between us would only make things worse if I try something a week after the fact. Either they're going to hire me back or they won't. Nothing like time and inertia to settle things, and thus my feelings about them.
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